We're gonna pick, pick, pick you apart!

bkev · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2005 9:30 pm **Posts:** 2591

Long as you're having fun, I guess. My problem is I consider my friends... conditional. They either go to school with me, do the same after-school activities, or live close by. Save a small few, they're just - convenient. And I feel horrible for saying that, but it makes me wonder if my friends are people I really care about.

I cared too much for an unconditional friend and may have lost him because of it. I need somebody to love.

supergirlcomix · **Posted:** Thu May 06, 2010 5:06 pm

Queen agrees with you, and laments your plight.

Comix agrees with you. The only problem is, Comix has someone to love, but he apparently does not love her back, though same claim that he has left to be better, and that love some how remains.

I don't know if I'd be happier thinking he doesn't love me or thinking that he might.

Damn it, life is crap sometimes.

crumpets the wise · **Posted:** Thu May 06, 2010 6:07 pm

Well, it would seem easier to go it alone, but doesn't it seem to be an awful waste of emotions to not express them to someone? Point: We need people we can be close enough to, to be able to express ourselves when needed... or in excess... with vulgarity and inside jokes.

Better to have loved and lost, right? Still torn on that one.

supergirlcomix · **Posted:** Thu May 06, 2010 9:24 pm

I have no idea.

I know I don't like losing

crumpets the wise · **Posted:** Fri May 07, 2010 1:22 am

Rather play the game and lose than sit on the sidelines watching everyone else have fun/try hard?

supergirlcomix · **Posted:** Fri May 07, 2010 4:07 pm

I'm a romantic, but a realist.

crumpets the wise · **Posted:** Fri May 07, 2010 7:06 pm

I'd hope not many people are one way or the other... It would leave too many zealots down here.

supergirlcomix · **Posted:** Sat May 08, 2010 6:00 pm

I dunno, the more I think about it, the more being a lone entity feels desirable. Nice. Safe. Closed.

crumpets the wise · **Posted:** Sat May 08, 2010 8:34 pm

And unfulfilling. Don't forget that one. And incomplete. There's also lonely.

supergirlcomix · **Posted:** Sun May 09, 2010 2:02 pm

True...

Still, I think a few months as a lone entity could do me some good. After all, you have to be single to mingle.

Plus, I note that I see my friends more. I had a really bad panic attack last night, so all my friends walked me back to my dorm, two stayed, and a bunch visited me in the morning. Including the boy. He made it short and brief, but checked it. He's a good guy.

crumpets the wise · **Posted:** Mon May 10, 2010 2:15 am

He'd have to be heartless not to check in at least. Doesn't really make him great though...

Sorry to hear about your panic attack,

Don't like hearing about Comix breaking down.

And it is true, being around friends can help for a while too. You've got a good head on your shoulders, so let's hope you use it

supergirlcomix · **Posted:** Tue May 11, 2010 1:29 pm

I certainly hope so. I made sure that I have an appointment with my Doctor scheduled so that I can get screened for depression over the summer. That way, if I need something to balance the hormones out...I can get it.

crumpets the wise · **Posted:** Tue May 11, 2010 4:57 pm

Just mentioned that to my girlfriend, something better than birth control to moderate hormonal levels. At least you're getting yours checked.

supergirlcomix · **Posted:** Tue May 11, 2010 5:48 pm

Well yeah, better safe than suicidal.

bkev · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2005 9:30 pm **Posts:** 2591

Outside of this crazy city it may not be as readily available, but might I suggest therapy before medication? Personally I'm scared of medication, I worry I'd never be the same.

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