The strangest thing... I'm not depressed anymore. Sad, YES but not depressed.
I've found my calling, when there seemed to be nothing over the horizon, a sudden and violent ray of hope blistered the landscape.
Today in misery I called my friend (who's a girl, of whom I treat like a guy) and she was hanging out with a mutual friend (my first girlfriend, 6th grade[held hands twice and lasted a few days]) and the mutual friend's baby.
Instead of actually hanging with them an engaging in their hot topics, I was enthralled by the child. I've always like children, but this was different.
I need to be a father. I feel a purpose in life now, and that is to bring into this world something created by me, raised by me, and taught to view the world as me. I need a child.
The happiness of being around that baby was different than when I was with her, nonetheless, it was a happiness I've never felt before.
SO! I've got some work to do
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